and so.. Gintoki said,..

'Life is all about having both happiness and sadness' (Gintama #82)

yep. it is.

you'll never know what's gonna hit you. you'll never know how deep you're gonna fall.
on the other hand,, you'll never know who'll bring you flowers. you'll never know how high you're gonna fly.

but, whether it's falling or flying,,
whether it's a critical hit or an ultimate boost of serotonin.

either way, you have to keep going. you must to keep going.
in fact, you don't have any other option left.
what? running away? Doko ni? where? other universe? Shinde kudasai.
what? stopping time? turning back time? tell me how much sci-fi movie you've watched.

you just have to keep going.
my sister once said., when you're arrive at a crossroads, when you don't know which is right and which is wrong, you still have to keep going. you'll never really know which one is right, or the other way.
when you choose one, and it turns out wrong, what's the odd that the other way will end up in a better situation?
after you're trying and it didn't got to the way you wanted, maybe it's meant to be that way. all you have to do is keep walking. live with the consequences. ssh,, quit whining.

Shuuji in Nobuta wo Produce once said, no matter how deep you fell, you have to keep going. because life won't end even if you're in a dark deep hole. *yep, unless you already dead when you fell, hehe

da..ka..ra. Ganbare yo!
life won't be easy on you, just like how it'll be hard on everyone else.

for the time being, i don't even know what should i do, i don't even understand what is right and what is wrong,, you must have been on that point to, haven't you? or if you really haven't been,, then be patient. you're on your way.

so,, Bismillahirrohmanirrohim. and Gambaru!