Meeeh..

Nandake?

this feeling of uncomfortable.
anxiety?
panic attack?

just a random Post Menstrual Syndrom?

well i don't know, but this past few weeks, it just felt like i've lost my stepping stone. and i'm not holding onto a handrail either.
so yeah, kinda like a free fall, but not too high.
it just seems like i'm missing something.
but then when i kinda, yeah, i kinda figured out what did i missed and try to make it right, it turns out i guessed wrong.
instead of making it right, it became a complete chaos.
maybe not complete.
maybe it's an ongoing chaos.
woo wait.

that's kind of depressing, don't you think?
i've got Suba and Kachu here with me, so what could possibly wrong?

everything literally.
but i guess i just have a lot of things that i'm worried about, and i don't even know where to start, how to handle it, and next thing i know, it's too late.

setting priority might worked, but it's too late. it's all tangled now.
making a list of what i'm thinking? and list all possible solution?
yea. that could actually work.
hm.

but where should i start?
just the other night i had my fill of motivation training. on how to make one self into an Inter-dependence character, not a dependence.
one who sees through all aspect, and not putting the blame on others.
gotta tell you, that's hard.

but it's a good thing, if you'd like to keep walking forward.
if not, then.. it's your choice.

so.
nandake?

i don't even know what i was trying to say. or do.
something feels off.
something.

meeeh..
let's just watch some tv shows.

Terjadimi.

and that's what my elder sister's exact word.

"Terjadimi."

yep. it happened.
Alhamdulillah, Bismillah, one step forward.. :)

it wasn't perfect, but it happened.
and it was reassuring and enjoyable. :)

Semoga diberi kemudahan dan kelancaran dalam menuju halalNya.
Aamiin...


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Small Talk

Terus si Ibu cerita.

"Ujian itu ada supaya kita ga lupa.

Allah itu pencemburu, kalau kita ga minta, kita sombong.

Minta aja sebanyak-banyaknya.

Kalau ada masalah dalam rumah tangga jangan cerita ke orang tua, ke teman.

Apalagi ke sahabat. Sahabat itu bisa jadi bumerang.

Kalau ada masalah ceritanya sama Allah saja.

InsyaAllah pasti masalahnya berangsur-angsur ilang.

Kalau habis shalat luangkan waktu tiga menit aja.

Doa.

Minta sebanyak-banyaknya.

Meskipun lagi tenang juga minta aja. Itu aja."

Terus ada yang teriak 'Terminal 1B!!'

Terus si Ibu pamit.