Pretty Much What The Society is,,

Just.. Judges.

'The' Clown

so there's The Clown.

always smiling. always trying to cheer up little kids. even though he scared them sometimes.
but he's a Clown. and he'll always smiling.
even when he's not smiling, he put up a 'happy' make up all over their face so he'll look happy all the time.
but then, he's a clown.

he put up a make up to make his face seem happy.
even though he's not.
he would try to make you smile,
even though he doesn't really want to. it's just that he have to.
he would get closer to you, even when you got scared of him.
but it's his job to get closer to you, so he did.

and then you'll laugh at him because of those silly things he do.
he even makes you laugh harder.
even though he doesn't like to make you laugh.

but what would you know?
he's a clown. he put a happy make up all over his face.
he's a clown. he's supposed to be laughed at.

but then,
you barely seen his real smile.

and when you realized he wasn't smiling,
it's when he's standing next to you holding a knife in the darkness of your room.

yeah. you can see the different. he's finally smiling.

Dear La,,

Dear La, My Partner in Crime.

hey,, how you've been, man?
it's been so long since i met you. hope you're doing good and having a great taste of life!
well, i gotta tell you one thing, buddy,
I miss you.
yep. you damn well read that just fine.
i miss you, La.

you know, we've been through a hell of a time together. you were there, remember? when i hit my down low - at the moment -.
you were there.
and now, i just hit my new down low, and i couldn't find you, man.
come on, buddy,, where are you?

i know we've been parted for quite some time now, but hey, guess what?
i still needs you, buddy.
you damn right, i need you.

remember when things were easier at that moment? well.. no, of course not. it was tough too.
but you wouldn't believe where i am now, man,,
i'm getting taller and i fell even harder!
wish you were here, buddy.
then you could make yourself usefull for a while. haha

So, La, really. i miss you. haven't i said that already?
haha. well i guess i just miss you that much.
i know that it's not really you who make me stronger, but, you were there. with me. that's the point. you were there, La.

i would've ashamed if you know i'm imagining you were with me now, haha
but it could be a total fun, don't you think?
you silence me when i want to scream. you calm me when i just wanna.. burst.
and you tell no one. you tell no one.
when everyone is a fake, you stay true. damn you're cool.
haha.

at first i was hoping that it would felt easier after i wrote this,
but it didn't.
well at least i tried.

i miss you, buddy.
i miss you.


sincerely
Yours