Just Like This!!

it all started back then, when we were young.
2006.

but i can't exactly remember how did it all begun. who said "hi" first? who shook whose hand?
where did we sit?

well it's just happened that your name was right above my name on the attendance list.
haha. lol.
how good life could be? giving you best friend for years just right above your name on the attendance list?

of course we did meet other best friends along the way. Alhamdulillah most of them still sticking around, not so close in de facto distance, but a-watsapp-reach. and that's relatively close. haha.

so.
remember when you first join your first concert? and i'm gladly come to see you?
we did take pictures, you know?

yay! photo taken 15.03.2009, 17:10

and now that i have to perform on stage for a scripted-presentation, you gladly come to see me!
and we did take pictures!

yaay! photo taken 03.11.2015

nyahahahha...
woot?woot? 6 years apart and we still can take pictures together. it's awesome, don't you think??! no. it's SUPERB!

sometimes i wonder what kind of different choices that i could take along the way.
i left home to live in Kos-Kosan when i was only 17 and a half.
the nearest family i have live in 5 hours drive.
what could go wrong?
well practically, everything could go wrong. not that what i became now is a saint or something like that, but at least.. it's not bad, you know.
and one way or another, i feel glad.

what helped me the most is the people around me. who support me, who keep reminding me.
since 2006, up to 2015, and seems like it's still a long way to go. haha

2006, Malang, the beginning..
i was helped by those unbelievably amazing people.

• Mbah Kos, who puts a strict rule (including have to be at home at 8pm on every 31st december), but taking a really good care of me all the time i was there, in good and in need.
• CG team. superb! you guys are such a bunch of nice kids!! even when some of us had a bad habit or two, we didn't pass it on to the other. instead, we pass on answer sheet and even studied together!! hahahaha. CG team strive for greatness!! you guys were there when i was at my lowest and keep me from falling! eventhough you wake me up on my birthday so early in the morning i haven't brush my teeth yet. lol.
• Indier. well, there are a lot of good and bad mixed in there. but i'm glad i graduated just fine. haha. i did take a lil bit bad in there though. but yeah. we were still young. i was young. but i'm better now. hahaha. but i can surely said Indier is like my 2nd family out there.
  remember when it was my first birthday in Malang and all of you just pick me up and trick me to pay for dinner?
  or remember when i had my first heartbreak and some of you pick the-still-have-red-and-sullen-eyes-me to get a cup of coffee to drink all the sorrows go?

so, surounded by these people i survived a 4,5 year being far away from home, from family.
and even some of the bad things i caught on those year somehow helped me, well it depends on perspective of course, such as gaming. anime. those two things makes me who i am now, and helped me form a simple conversation with another good strangers i met later on.

and then we move a lil bit forward, to 2011. in this big, crowded, blinding city. Jakarta.
i guess i'm lucky since i have my eldest sister lived in Jakarta when i moved. but since our work place is different, we decided to live in different place. and again i was helped. yes. because the good people i met in Malang also here! in Jakarta!!
and when my dad keeps reminding me to stay out of drugs, i almost laugh my heart out, since rather than spending money for drugs, i like spending money on Chopper more! hahhaha. and Chatime. i guess it has something to do with the C. like Chy in my name? mm. just pretend i didn't write that.

well.
just like Mas Ike said.

mieru ka na tsutawaru no ka na
kouyatte men muite kimi ni hanashiteokitai
itsuka hanareru kara eien nante nai kara
dakara ima shitte hoshikattanda
koko made kita juu nen hitori ja nakattatte koto
kowareta nodo ga mune harisaketa
yameyoutte nandomo tachidomatta
demo kimi wa ore wo matteitanda

Please Don’t Change It konna ore wo hitsuyou toshitekureteitatte koto ga
ureshikute arigatou ja tarinainda
miwatasu kagiri no nakama to kazoku no you na kizuna wo
wakachiaeru kono sekai de yuitsu no orera dake no basho

Please Don’t Change It deaeta koto waraiaete shinjitemitakunaretanda
sou omoeru jibun ni aeta
ore no yukusaki ni zutto ite hoshii soko de waratteite yo
kowaku wa nainda kimi ga iru nara dokomademo Just Like This

translation:

I wonder if you can see it.. I wonder if it gets across to you
I want us to sit like this, face to face, and talk
Someday we will eventuary part, since nothing lasts forever..
.. so, I wanted to let you know this now..
.. that the fact that I wasn’t alone for the past 10 years, coming this far..
.. singing my heart out with my broken voice..
.. regardless of times I said “let’s quit” trying to give up..
.. is all, because you’ve patiently been there for me

Please Don’t Change It.. letting someone like me, feel needed..
.. you’ve made me so content a simple thank you can’t possibly cut it
The one & only place in this world, for us and us alone..
.. where we can share bonds like a family with as many friends as the eye can see

Please Don’t Change It.. the fact that we were able to happen upon each other.. I finally could..
.. laugh with you about it.. and feel I want to put my trust in it.. seems I was able to meet my real self
Wherever I am headed, I want you to always be there.. just be there and smile at me
I’m not scared, long as you are with me.. I’d go anywhere.. Just Like This

so.
Thank you!!!:D
and of course. Alhamdulillah, Subhanallah!!


find the song here and the lyrics here!

An Insight about Summer Vacation by Hasegawa Taizou

Girls: Summer vacation really is a blast! I wish it would never end!

Hasegawa Taizou:

are you sure about that?
do you really want summer vacation to last forever?

if summer vacation were endless, what would you want to do? keep vacationing forever?
keep vacationing even as your classmates enter a new school term?
keep vacationing even as they all graduate, become independent, and start working?
keep vacationing even as your parents make sarcastic remarks about how your friend So-And-So got promoted or married?
"Really, I wanted to get a job too, and get married, and repay my parents for all they've done for me."
with such thoughts in your head,..

would you stay in your room, left alone with nobody to call family, and keep vacationing? of course you would.
you were the one who wished for an eternal summer vacation, so you'd have to keep on vacationing, with no vacations from your vacationing!

do you get it now?
Vacations can only exist after work obligations, the basis of the human lifestyle, are fulfilled! you can't call a year round vacation a vacation at all!
the same holds true for everything.
an endless vacation is the same as work.it turns into an obligation, a source of pain.

you can only enjoy a vacation because it'll end someday. you can only keep working because it'll end someday.
an endless summer vacation is no different from an eternal hell!

Thank your lucky stars!
be thankful that your life has both obligations and vacations, both ups and downs!
thankful that your summer vacation can still be called a summer vacation!



- Gintama 2015 Ep.17

Gibberish.

so.
based on personal experience reference, life is tough. not mentioning being a human, damn, that was rough, even.
that's why it is important to have faith.
and they didn't say "where there's a will, there's a way" for nothing.
because it's true. what matters is how big and how strong your will is.

and then, there's also things about doing the right thing.
yeah, like it was easy to do.
but actually at some point it is the easiest thing to do. because you wouldn't feel your guilty conscience eating you up late at night while you're trying to sleep.
so do the right thing.
even if it is the hardest thing to do.

because life's right and wrong wasn't as simple as turning on the lamp.
you can do wrong things right. or you can do right things wrong.
sometimes to do the right things you hurt others. or yourself.
sometimes you do the wrong things and everyone happy.
when you make a decision, it helps one, but hurts another.
there's no win win solution, it's a compromise solution, really.

sometimes you give up the things you want the most for the things you need the most. or maybe it's the other way around.
well, sometimes man can't even differentiate between the things they need and the things they want.
it's confusing. and tricky.

sometimes it's even better to jump head first just to see what you're made of. plus to see how many bones you'll break. and how many heartbroken you can survive.

even being a single independent human in this planet doesn't mean anything. you'll meet someone. you'll bump into someone. you'll see someone. and you'll need someone.
but not everyone gives you flowers. sometimes they give you the thorn and you happily accept it.
talk about stupidity.

so when the time comes for you to man up, losing the things you want, just to see how you'll survive, and how it'll end up, there's no point in being gloomy over it, right?
when you let the birds out of the cage, it's only natural they started to fly and going up up and away.
you wouldn't let them fly with a chain on their feet, right?
because sometimes things are better when you let them go.

ja. sore ga yokatta kamo shirenai, ne?
just started it with Bismillahirrohmanirrohim, and ganbarimasu! yosh!